Rueben Canday - So What (feat. Decembr) Lyrics

Yeah I've been fighting the fight
Feeling the plight
Losing my sight
Losing my mind in the dark tryna follow the light
Been trying to search I got nothing to find
Been on the low but I'm still on the grind
Leaving the past behind
Don't try to hide contemplating
Suicide got me waiting to die
Livin your life in a lie they calling you sly
I don't even know why
Prolly high on some pills
Haven't been paying any bills
Working my ass while you smoking some hash on the hills
Feeling the chills
I'm drenched in my sweat got the glaze
Don't do drugs but I'm feeling the daze
He payed for your sins
Took your death to the grave
Behave I'm tryna get saved!
Chains on your soul feeling enslaved
You going to hell watching end game
Like Sensai feeling profane, snorting cocaine!
They said that I wasn't real
But I'm trying to heal all the pain I was feeling
Don't even get the deal
While the meals you been eating
Got the seal of the demon
Reveal all the secrets while you kneel
To the money licking ass
While you sit in first class with your glass full of wine
Sell your soul for a dime it's a crime
Got the lime in my eyes, enough of the lies
I despise the disguise, sell your soul for a price
Heart cold as ice rolling dice
Enough of the silence
Done with all lies
You ain't gonna die once
You got it twice (Twice)
Party every week, catch up on some sleep
Now I need a baby mama cause I got pussy to eat
I used to pop a pilly, getting high I'm trippin' deep, so what?!
So what, so what, so what
So what
You never know what might happen
I see thru you like a tennis racket
Sometimes I feel like I should change my habits
Take three hits of this like a hat trick
Everything I wish I'll make it happen
Everything I wish, I'll make it happen
Take three hits of this like a hat trick
Everything I wish I'll make it happen, yeah
Grab the mic and spit fire like a dragon
Flyin' so high man I feel like a phantom
When I die, hope my homies smoke my ashes
Talent meets passion, I cannot imagine
Turned into everything I
Turned into everything I
Turned into everything I said I wouldn't
Why do I do shit that I know I shouldn't
Everything that f*cks you up man it soon ends
How you feel, the drugs start to kick in
And it's feeling really shitty
Reality's disintegrating, in too deep to leave now, yeah
I think that I sense all my fears
I just wanna get outta here
Spending what I can't afford
Mama tryna call my phone but I'm zoned out
Devil on my head, feel like Imma die young
I ain't tryna be seen, I'm just tryna be heard
First things first, I've been in the dirt
I've been digging a grave for all of my sins
There you go again playing the victim
There you go again playing the victim
There you go again blaming the system
Working 9- 5 I've got cash I won't deny
Trying to stay sober now I just ain't getting high
Yeah he saved my soul, now I'm just living life so what?
So what, so what, so what?
So what?!