Run4mok - There She Goes Lyrics

There she goes again
There I go again
Throwing blame at each other, what's the matter?
Throwing shade 'cause I feel I'm in your shadow
Throwing names like it doesn't even matter
Find any excuse to leverage sympathy out of you
I'm taking what's the truth and I'm twisting it to get back at you
I get all defensive when you be giving me attitude
Why I got to love you so
I just want to be mad at you
It's difficult to not want to apologise
When you feel like you in the right but you don't want to fight
It's difficult to not want to just hug you
When you're crying and it's hurting me so cause I love you
I can't remember the argument yesterday
But I remember the way I felt when you say
I'm the only one that you ever truly loved
And I feel the same way
So when you leave I'm stuck like
There she goes again
There I go again
I can recognise that I'm doing it
But I'm a passenger in my body when losing it
It's like I'm fourteen all again
And I'm getting verbally abused, got nothing to say
I got nothing but regrets from a very young age
So it's hard to accept everything is okay
And the only safe space is to zone out in my brain
I'm outside, freezing cold in the rain
And you're by the warm fire & inviting me to stay
But I don't want to put a damper on your flame
Or ruin a good thing like I already displayed
There I go again
Self sabotaging everything
I'm sorry that I'm like this
I don't know if I'll change
But I know you love me so I no longer place the blame like