i Thought Lyrics by Sarantos

i Thought

Intro

Verse 1

Yesterday I felt alone
More so than usual
I couldn't remember
What I've done with my life
Or where I was going
But I heard the crackle of a dying ember

Verse 2

And today I feel alone
More so than usual
I don't know
That I've lived my life
Things only gettin worse
There's no hint of an angel or a rainbow

PreChorus 1

I don't know how much more I can take
Not fair to those around me when I feel this way
They deserve better more than I can give
More than me they deserve to live

Chorus 1
(I thought) God would never say goodbye
(I thought) He would always be my guide
(I thought) God would stand beside me
(I thought) He would not deny me
(I thought) When dad died he'd live inside me (I thought) But I was wrong

So wrong
Verse 3

Yesterday I drowned in work
More so than usual
Ran ragged until
The clock struck ten and then
My hell of a day was done
And I ran home to swallow some pills

Verse 4

Today I drowned in work
More so than usual
There's still no cure
But the doctors still try
Friends throw me a smile
As I sob in the shadows I'm just not sure

PreChorus 2

I don't know how much more I can take
Not fair to those around me when I feel this way
They deserve better more than I can give
More than me they deserve to live

Chorus 2

(I thought) God would never say goodbye
(I thought) He would always be my guide
(I thought) God would stand beside me
(I thought) He would not deny me
(I thought) When dad died he'd live inside me (I thought) But I was wrong

Post Chorus

It's been years, I'm circling the drain
I can't fight anymore, can't fight the pain
Tired, nothing's changed, nothing's left
And all I want, is to live in my bed
Why did you abandon me?

Solo

Chorus 3

(I thought) God would never say goodbye
(I thought) He would always guide me
(I thought) God would stand beside me
(I thought) He would not deny me
(I thought) When dad died he'd live inside me
(I thought) But I was wrong

Post Chorus

It's been years, I'm circling the drain
I can't fight anymore, can't fight the pain
Tired, nothing's changed, nothing's left
And all I want, is to live in my bed
I never wanted any of this

Outro

Verse 5

At night alone when I catch my breath
It all washes over me
All the heavy guilt
The helplessness and failures
I hear the wave
I struggle and fight
Why did God let me wilt

Verse 6

I take one last breath before
The darkness below
Takes a hold And doesn't let me go
At last I know
It's time
To give up Close my eyes
To go to the other side
I don't know what's there
But I don't really care

[Thanks to info for adding these lyrics]