Sour Video (MV)

I remember when I wanted to grow up
And now I don't even know if I'll grow old
My eyes hasn't seen a light in months
And I wish I was able to see things like I used to
You are the light
And I'm in the dark
But I can't escape
Cause you burnt yourself to the ground
Sometimes I wish my feet were made of concrete
So I could drown
Not being able to save myself
I thought you were the oxygen in my lungs
But I think you were in my blood instead
And I let myself die
But I wouldn't change a thing
Because dying for this was well worth it
Was well worth it
And all the friends I call my own
Don't even know what's going on
I'm stuck inside a different planet
And I'm all alone
I thought you were the oxygen in my lungs
But I think you were in my blood instead
And I let myself die
But I wouldn't change a thing
Because dying for this was well worth it
Was well worth it
Forcing my fears to don't come out
Forcingly sleeping without pressing on my veins
Cause I don't like the feeling of my blood
Pulsing at the rhythm of my heart
It's true when they say that you'll not grieve your own death
But the people you love will
And it's even hurtful knowing that
Than hoping I'll never breath again
I feel heavy, I feel grey
I gave you everything I make myself to believe
Will I ever be happy again?
And I crack my fingers
Just to remind myself that I'm alive
Either way I'm afraid I'd end up choking on the pills
That help me free my mind
All I've got are memories
But in the end they'll fade away
I hope I'll leave before they will leave me
All I've got are memories
But in the end they'll fade away
I hope I'll leave before they will leave me