Sam Tompkins - see me Lyrics

I've never been confident
Never wanted to take my shirt off in front of girls
And it's probably
Something that I have learnt
Need to come to terms and be honest with
But I'm too scared of what people might say
I'm afraid
Of everyone judging me
Once they observe what I preserve
And stop loving me
'Cause that shit hurts, I did it first
And it's cutting me
Deeper than a knife ever could
I'm no good

Give me strength
I've cried too many times
Here in the quiet
In my bed
I hate myself but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me

I think I owe an apology
To the kid I was when I was young
'Cause, I promised him
That I'll figure all this out by the time that he'd gotten here
But that was a lie and I am still ashamed
'Cause I'm to blame, ooh

The war that I'm fighting is fought by a person I can't see
And I'm lately I'm hiding, all 'cause of me

Give me strength
I've cried too many times
Here in the quiet
In my bed
I hate myself, but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me

Lost my head
I'm not too proud of the way that I'm hiding
Eyes are red
Been months since I caught myself smiling
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me

Give me strength
I've cried too many times
Here in the quiet
In my bed
I hate myself but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me