Santoni - Daburu Lyrics

Last thing I remember
Battle to the death
Smoke bombs and ember
Somebody is messing with my breath

I'm running I'm jumping
But still in the same place
Anxiety chasing me
Feels like every day is a race
Against all who pursue that glory filled state
My conscience kills me
Whenever I take a break
All the stains I want to erase
People say stop and enjoy
But if I do I'll fail the chase
Puff it up with the base

Weapons are flying
People are dying
I'm sorry I hurt you
I loved you but if I denied it I was lying

Wanted to be great
At so many things at one time
Distraction was the best way to deal with my situation
Huge lack of motivation wanted to do things
But my body wouldn't move
Had no easy outs
I blamed it all on the mood
Wished to have no regrets
Depression dug me deeper
Like sleep paralysis I felt the presence of the reaper

Too many chances I let them go by
Gut wrenching feeling when you were in sight
Sadness high for my powers to ignite
No rest for the weary they're ready to fight
Premeditated nights
I was lonely alright
But I channeled my hardships and experience
To harness the will to write

The battle begins
All these feelings within are preventing my chances to win
Facing mortality
Glimpse of reality
Is my own focus
I notice
Compassion the moment
About to lose something
Regrets start growing
All the hatred you poured
Then you start knowing
The truth of the scenes
Can't believe
What I bleed
My mistake
So it seems
To redeem
All the time that I spent
Hell bent
On not believing your pleas
Woah

Idealistically battling
Sophisticated discussion
I and me there's no option
Your adversary have caution
Red eyes show me the passion
You take my mind I reverse it in time
Dashing in between the lines
Cycle begins I'm fine
Now I'm ready

I'm free from the chains
Too good to be true
Cause when I feel too much joy
It's something I'm not used to

This journey is going well
But I feel some distortion
Every time I hear the noise
It fills me with emotion
I understand what this means
You are just my reflection
Showing me what I thought was true
Was only a deception

Too many voices I can't hear my own thoughts
Who do I listen to?
Trying to make the least mistakes
My mind is clouded
Ugly things I saw in nightmares
Never woke up shouting
Clear consciousness
Clear my name
Lots of people I care about
To me they do the same
Been thinking about everything on this chase for fame
So many people suffer
Pointing fingers for the blame

Many hide their true self
Many hide their desire
It's all fast paced in this world
That we miss out on too much
So many stories past generations wanna tell us
And we miss them
Many errors we as humans and social system

It's funny that people have revelations
And feel regret for actions and errors
And we promise to change for the better
But we always end up going back to the same routine
As if we were emotionless
We seem like heartless machines

I'm just lost in a sea of thoughts and possible solutions
I can't bottle up all at once
So many things I want to say
But just one song ain't enough

I used to express
A weird version of humility
Just missing out on opportunities
Because of what I thought people would think of me
A fear of losing the ones closest to me

My mind is constantly split in two
My mind is constantly split in two