Sauce Is Matisse - Migraines Lyrics

I'm getting big headed with the migraines
I'd better medicate my meditative mindstate
I'm never messing with no magic and no mind games
I made a method of my madness, my way

You know I'm prone to only focus one emotion and that's disgust
Going through the motions and I know what's got me mixed up
Talking to myself I tell the truth, but I distrust
This sucks, I'm a dichotomy, probe and discuss?
I've seen it go, believe but I know
So I lean to the hope but I'm real with my goals, ya know?
I'm out objectively assessing any holes
In my focus and closing up any openings
I'm rapping bout my mental over some annoying sampled
Entertaining instrumental, say I stay experimental
Gotta hand it to my stamina, I made it out my hell hole
And I'm making every date a day I wake up saying "hello!"

I wanna land so many hits that y'all get cauliflower ear
Just kidding but I'm finna get em all up outta here
Cuz I'm all about the flare that you all about to hear
Gotta talk about the falling out of all the sound and sear
It like a steak, I'm rare, gimme a break, compare
Me to a vacant faking waste of space, if you ain't aware
No stroke of genius'll ever take its place without impairing
He who carries it, I bear it every day, it's staying there
Okay I'll lighten the sauce
All right I mighta been typing when I was frightened of thoughts
And living life with the light off, like I was lying and lost
But now my writings like Vicodin, I am high on the songs, so

I'm tryna take the edge off of this headache
But any way I meditate is messy, flaking lead paint
My dead state's heavy sedative is pressing play
Cuz every dedicated medicine has went away
No weening off it, gone in all in or nothing
I've fallen off of my rocker but oddly swallowed the "f*ck it"
So I'm an honorably calm and collected awful curmudgeon
Not much has come up, I call it a false alarm when I'm humming a hoax
Hi, it's time for me to get on your nerves
I meant every word, it's medicine whatever you heard
An ancient extraterrestrial, but I'm tethered to earth
Regret and a curse, cemented in my head and it hurts