Second Chance Charade - I Don't Wanna Die Lyrics

Runnin' from the darkness, it's a daily race
Numbin' all the pain, but it's never erased
Pills in my hand, tryna feel okay
But the shadows in my mind never go away
I see the light, but it's slippin' from my grip
Fallin' in the void, and it's pullin' at my wrist
Voices in my head, they don't let me sleep
But I keep on runnin', tryin' not to sink too deep
Lost in a maze, tryna find my way out
But the walls keep closin' in, fillin' me with doubt
I'm stuck in this battle, fightin' to survive
Tryna breathe in a world that feels so unalive
I don't wanna die, but I still don't wanna be alive
Caught between the pain and the tears that I hide
Lookin' for a reason, somethin' to keep me in the fight
I don't wanna die, but I still don't wanna be alive
Every day's a struggle, walkin' on thin ice
Feelin' like a ghost, trapped in my own vice
Pourin' out my soul, hopin' someone hears
But I'm drownin' in the silence of my darkest fears
Hopin' for a savior, but they never come
So I keep on fakin' smiles, pretendin' I'm not numb
They say keep your head up, but they don't understand
The weight on my shoulders, the scars on my hands
Lost in a maze, tryna find my way out
But the walls keep closin' in, fillin' me with doubt
I'm stuck in this battle, fightin' to survive
Tryna breathe in a world that feels so unalive
I don't wanna die, but I still don't wanna be alive
Caught between the pain and the tears that I hide
Lookin' for a reason, somethin' to keep me in the fight
I don't wanna die, but I still don't wanna be alive
Maybe one day I'll find the strength to heal
But right now it's hard just to feel what's real
I'm reachin' for the light, but it's so far away
Fightin' every second just to see another day
I don't wanna die, but I still don't wanna be alive
Caught between the pain and the tears that I hide
Lookin' for a reason, somethin' to keep me in the fight
I don't wanna die, but I still don't wanna be alive