Shawn E - Second Life Lyrics

Yo my Mind is trapped I'm inside the black
Seen the movie of my life i'll rewind it back
But Every time i do yo the tape is broke
Im a Tell u that i'm cool man I fake the hope
Cause when i was a kid i was better off
I ended up seeing things that i Never thought
Responsibilities are getting out the usual
Like writing a eulogy for my mothers funeral
It's crazy right yeah i went and hit the bottom
I Used to drink for fun then it turned into a problem
Yo For years i was Mouthing off and tripping
Prolly cause i was suffering from Alcohol addiction
Which really ive been Fighting to this day
I always try to leave but they like it when i stay
Analyzing why all my Life has been astray
Maybe if i get it right i'll be okay
I'm thinking like

Yo I remember as a kid
Thinking bout the things i shoulda did
Now im tryna get it right
Maybe i'll do it in my second life
Yeah yeah

Yo i'm thinking bout my past
Had to figure that it wouldn't last
Now i'm tryna get it right
I'm gonna do it in my second life
Yeah yeah

Ayo Way before the weed smoke
Used to ride the mongoose with 3 spokes
Cherry red people like he's dope
Until i got it stolen but yo such is life
I just went and took another bike
And had somebodys parents show up at my crib
But i was just a kid yo isn't that what we did?
Yo at 17 man i had a dream
By 21 i was plotting on a mac machine
And I dont mean literally but a state of mind
I'll say i'm fine it don't matter if its rain or shine
But Who does it really help
Am i lying to you or am i lying to myself
I dont know but like
Yo Thinking about it now
It's been weighing me down and I think that i'ma drown...
I Threw away my life but yo recently i found
Maybe i could get it right if i get another round man i'm thinking like

Yo I remember as a kid
Thinking bout the things i shoulda did
Now im tryna get it right
Maybe i'll do it in my second life
Yeah yeah

Yo i'm thinking bout my past
Had to figure that it wouldn't last
Now i'm tryna get it right
I'm gonna do it in my second life
Yeah yeah

Yo and it don't mean much
Used to be the kid with the clean cuts
Let me go and tell what what I mean yup
I'll Take it back to seventh grade when i switched schools
Forgot about my grades just so I could get cool
Which I prolly could have done another way
Cause i don't even talk to any one of em today
Dont get it twisted i aint acting like i'm blaming you
Yo You aint different i just never been the same as you
I Thought different, i walk different, i talk different
I got caught in the moment like yo we all miss it It'll never be found
Yo I ended up forgetting bout the memories now but i'm getting around
Yo i really think I figured it out
What i used to call a dream i'll be living it out
Was in a hole now im digging it out
Another chance man im getting it out so im thinking like

Yo I remember as a kid
Thinking bout the things i shoulda did
Now im tryna get it right
Maybe i'll do it in my second life
Yeah yeah

Yo i'm thinking bout my past
Had to figure that it wouldn't last
Now i'm tryna get it right
I'm gonna do it in my second life
Yeah yeah