Count all my blessings (feat. Bingx) Video (MV)

When this life is your rival and all you have is this mic
You hold on for survival cause it's
It's barely breaking the cycle of what is killing me inside
Somebody please check my vitals, cause this,
This shit is nothing I thought it would be
I hold on these thoughts that I dream and Count all my blessings
I'm all out of options so there was never a question
Success is the answer I need so I ain't
Bout to leave without it
Oh I know all my inhibitions make it hard to show my face
I was made a little different, what's a diamond to a spade
Said I've always had a vision, but this pain is my prescription
Take a little hit and I can make it through the day
Once I'm riding I'm invincible, ain't trippin' no more
But through this life I felt invisible, don't rain it just pours
I've been afraid my whole life, been in the shade with no light
I've been a product of my environment, f*ck it no more
No more to listen to gossip, tell em I'm done being cautious
I write the checks so I know what it costs I'ma hire the homies and give em all salaries
I'm on some boss shit, it's all a process Even when I'm exhausted, done tryna measure
My wins by my bank account balance I know this shit all about progress
I'm defined by mentality, not the shit that you see
Think me running from something's disguise is chasing my dreams
I'm done living for all the people that I'll never meet
Wear my heart on my sleeve, just know I do this for me
When this life is your rival and all you have is this mic
You hold on for survival cause it's
It's barely breaking the cycle of what is killing me inside
Somebody please check my vitals, cause this,
This shit is nothing I thought it would be
I hold on these thoughts that I dream and Count all my blessings
I'm all out of options so there was never a question
Success is the answer I need so I ain't
Bout to leave without it
See all my days in the booth reflect the pain rage and sustained throughout the years of my youth, Music's my only influence, was a lonely 10 year old boy dreaming locked
In his room,
That just get lost in his tunes and get completely consumed
Cause outside life was a nightmare, wasn't shit I could do
No crystal ball could change misfortunes or the shit I went through I walk a tightrope everyday while music balance my mood
Was better that then taking that rope, tying that to a
Yeah, cause I know what I'm fighting for
This life is a tug of war
Been dragged through the mud so many times
Been pushed aside and I've been ignored
The blood sweat and tears on my face I let em all sleep in the page
Cause I can no longer keep standing in place and ponder on shit I could never erase
I had to move on and embrace it Shine my own light so past shadows could fade in
Demons from the past can't follow the path I'm making
F*ck the non-believers who thought that I'd never make it
Pray for who had the faith
Tomorrow's a better day,
When this life is your rival and all you have is this mic
You hold on for survival cause it's
It's barely breaking the cycle of what is killing me inside
Somebody please check my vitals, cause this,
This shit is nothing I thought it would be
I hold on these thoughts that I dream and Count all my blessings
I'm all out of options so there was never a question
Success is the answer I need so I ain't
Bout to leave without it