Skemata - Brush Lyrics

What am I to do but
Sit by and watch and
Should I hang my head and
Act all f*cked up
Who can possibly help me
My friends are here
To help me through the day
When I see you walk with him
Down the hall
What am I to do but
Smile when I'm told
I can't show my discontent
I guess I'll just put
My heart up for rent
Do you know if I could turn it all around
I don't think that I would
I kind of enjoy the pain
Is that f*cked up and do you think I should
Get some help
Maybe there's something wrong with me
I really wouldn't doubt it
Do you know if I could turn it all around
I definitely would
I really hate the pain
Its f*cked me up so much I think I should
Get some help
There is something wrong with me
And I think it's too late
Only one star in the sky
And it's not for me