Skitall - Hopeless Lyrics

I cannot cope
With all of the bullshit
That you be putting me through
Tell me I gotta get better
But never the same when the finger gets pointed at you
I'm starting to think that the picture I painted was cute
But never the truth
I couldn't be someone I'm not to impress you
Go on and find someone else to undress you
I'm sick of these people just taking the piss
Thinking they know me they taking my kindness as weakness
And use and abuse it so now I'm thinking I'ma flip on a switch and misuse it
Never been afraid to burn a f*cking bridge down
If I don't want you around
I vowed to myself that I wouldn't let anyone hurt me
No more till im dead in the ground
Left with my thoughts and my feelings
Trying to justify living but can't find a reason
Maybe the change of the seasons
Are the reason my heart has been freezing
I can't explain all the pain in the life
Just know that the rain in the night
Is what keeps me alive when I'm feeling like dying
I go out and I feel something instead of just crying
You got me thinking I gotta focus
I'm sitting here feeling so hopeless
I feel like leaving without giving notice
Don't think anybody would notice
I want to learn how to hustle in rain
Fight through the pain
Find my own light in the darkest of days
I can't rely on the guidance you gave
Closing my eyes but I cannot sleep
My mind has been digging a hole and it's deep
I didn't know I could be my own enemy
Got me so f*cked up I think it's the end of me
Really is this the way I'm bout to go
Hurting myself every time that I fall in my life
And I reach for the knife and I slice deep down
Untill you see to the bone
Now I'm bleeding alone