Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Started thinking bout
A normal life yeah
It's got me sentimental
I don't know what to do with myself
Yeah I can't see the shore
I'm so lost in thought
I don't know where to go
I wish I was the same
Like everyone else
Thinking bout it everyday
Rapping in my room
Wishing I was better
Don't know why
I keep on doing this
I'm so far gone
There ain't no light
And I need God
But I'm just here
To spit the pain
And go behind the scenes
And show y'all what
Y'all really don't see
Yeah I wish I could just be free
My mind is so dark though
I hope to find my way
And hopefully I don't go the other way
And even sometimes I don't love myself
I sit in my room
Body feeling heavy
Eyes feeling dry
Being so lost in my own thoughts yeah
Telling myself that I won't make it
And I'm just nothing nothing nothing
Chasing these dreams
They're just so pointless
Everyone's so fake to me but but
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
How will I ever find myself
Yeah I can't find myself
How will I ever find myself
Pretty sad when you think about it
Yeah if you ever come by me yeah
After hearing this
Don't be asking me if I'm okay
And act like you care
I know you're lying
There's only ever been a few people yeah
That I know who cared for me
So don't feel bad for me yeah
And act fake cause I don't like that
But sometimes I really wish I wasn't like that yeah
Tryna be someone else that I'm not
Tryna be someone else that I'm not yeah
Tryna be someone else that I'm not yeah
You know after a while it drives you crazy
Almost to death so watch out