Soft & Sweet - More Human Than Me Lyrics

I said "You wouldn't f*ck me if you saw how I look these days"
I'm all wires and scars
And the doctors say that I'm far
From getting over this
I can still make your heart race, just not in the same way that I once did
Well, Jesus Christ
You deserve much better than me
More human than me

Against my wishes, he stopped by the hospital at midnight
He hardly recognized me
Forty weeks in a ravaged body
Still wore my wedding ring
But I got vicious and I screamed
"Get the f*ck out of here! Don't look at me!"
It broke my heart
It made me weak
But he wouldn't leave

It's the type of silence where someone drops a pin and it deafens you
He drew the blinds closed
Broke the silence with an anecdote
Recalled the night that we met
Said "You looked graceful, and I kept thinking
'Holy shit, I'm gonna f*ck this up'
You stole my heart
You called my bluff
I knew your love was enough"

I spoke sarcastically "Now you're married to a train wreck"
He just awkwardly laughed
And pulled from his pocket; a photograph
And spoke with sincerity
"You don't have to believe me, but you're just as stunning now as you were back then"
I forced a laugh when the tears rolled in
He held the back of my head

Is this really how we live?
Is this really all there is?
Then cut the bullshit, let me go
There isn't more to this, I know