Not Ashamed, Pt. 2 Video (MV)

I know in your eyes, that I must look like Kate
With a handful of pills prescribed to someone else's name
Her fists full of bottles that fell as she shook
Her eyes were glossed over, it killed me to look
My codeine queen could come and save me from this
And ravage my body inside another sultry kiss
In the name of the father, the son, and holy ghost
I am clutching on tightly, and that's what's scaring me the most

I still keep the last text that you sent on my phone
"This feeling of panic, it just won't leave me alone
I wish I could see the world the way that you do
I won't ever leave you, man, I'll always love you"
Ten simple words that only held half the truth
And given the source, I can expect that from you
Pulled down from the cross, so I could look in his eyes
I could tell we're no different, but it came as a surprise
Looked back to the cross that I still wear on my wrist
Said "I know Kate must love you, but I can not make amends"

Go save someone on the other line
Tell the EMTs "Don't rush this time"
I've made my peace with an earlier grave, and when I'm at the pearly gates
I'll introduce her to both of my parents
Dad says "Son, you're just imagining Heaven"
Mom kisses my head, and Kate takes me home
Then I wake up cold and alone

So I let the pills drown
Said "Enough is enough"
And as I turn all the lights down
The Devil calls my bluff
I'll see your grave tomorrow
And I'm sure I'll see him there
With his back to your tombstone
Singing words of despair
"Let's make amends my faithless friend"