Soft & Sweet - Until the Mountains Are Gone (Act II) Lyrics

I'm sick of hospital visits and throwing up in the waiting room
Always the youngest one in there, so patients stare, and nurses, too
And I've been spewing out diatribes against everyone I love
'Cause if I die and they hate me, then all of their worries will become snuffed

A sad excuse for a daughter, or a girlfriend, or a niece
I know that everyone's waiting to see me turn into a masterpiece
I hate to keep them waiting, but they've been looking in the wrong direction
So who's gonna tell them?

I can't get healthier than this
Better years spent as a kid
When I was younger, I thought I had the world in front of me

It was a lie I chose to believe
And now I pay the price for living in delusion
I came to my conclusion last night

And I've been acting so cynical, I've nearly pushed everyone away
My defense mechanism completely consumes me, it's my life to take
But when I made a joke about death, I could see the tears in his eyes
It made me regretful, I spoke sincerely and apologized

I start to write down my memoirs, my own will, at 22
I'm thinking back at the good times, and now they're things that I could never do
And when I see my reflection, I don't recognize the look in my eyes
It f*cking hurts to realize

I can't get healthier than this
Better years spent as a kid
When I was younger, I thought I had the world in front of me

It was a lie I chose to believe
And now I pay the price for living in delusion
I came to my conclusion last night

And I hate to say it
'Cause I know you loved her
But like the time that we spent in the glow of dawn
Or the voice in my head telling me to go on
I'm sorry, Leon, but the old Laura is gone