South Samson - Eggshells Lyrics

I remember back before I heard about them ovaries
And eggs be droppin' down so often I 'd be askin' over easy
Pullin' out my checkbook an' lookin' for a better reason
T'swallow up that medicine or flush it out like spring season
Every other mother in this place knows that we can't hack it
Couple days later in my room wishing we had jacked it
Comin' through with colors flying I could have just dawned the plastic
Pill was too expensive, it's looking like we have to have it
Diein' down beneath all that cloth and that rolled up fabric
Family too important to admit that we've established
Fertile territory with this pre-existent being
Man, crying out loud why can't they see what we see
Zero income ain't a way to form a family

But we still tried
To do what's right
Yeah we did our best
But that's when you flushed out

Impossibly set, impeccably primed
The day your father saw my face, he audibly wined
And I never thought I'd be the type of guy to think of running
Up until I saw his eyes and then I knew that I'd be gunning
For any open exit though they all seem to be shutting
So I closed my eyes, and I ran for good cover
But I couldn't find any, so I headed for my mother
And she said to me I cannot help you son
I've got 99 problems, but y'all ain't one
Those who mind don't matter
Those who matter do not mind
This baby ain't about you
Put it first and you'll be fine
No Mom what are you stupid; I've got no money
How am I supposed to feed it, how am I gonna get it honey
That doesn't matter child, just be there for it
But Mom I do not think that I can care for it
This baby shouldn't just live, it needs to thrive
Yet under my protection, I'm not sure it'll survive

But we still tried
To do what's right
Yeah we did our best
But that's when you flushed out

Eggshells, eggshells, why do they fall
I've got my basket out, but I don't think I'll catch them all
They splatter to the ground, night night darling
After a couple months this all feels so alarming
Where do they go, and what do we do
I've lost all my hope; got me feeling so recluse
Going out of my mind, yeah I'm looking like a zombie
I can't sleep at nights, there's no way you'll survive me
I pack my own bags, I should probably hit the road
I've got my jacket on you used to wear when you were cold
It's all over now, so I'm acting pretty desperate
Writing this down, I hope I don't seem reckless
And stupid, yeah I'll admit it I'm a dummy
You're the one that's hurting worse, ain't that fricken funny
How I put my needs above your own
And made you feel so alone
Thinking back now, I was really being selfish
You deserved better, my whole life I've been a flight risk
Analyzing the probability of downfall
And our miscarriage made me think our ship was done for
Yeah now I'm falling down the rabbit hole
'Cept every time I think of you I drop another 6 feet more

But we still tried
To do what's right
Yeah we did our best
But that's when you flushed out