Spanish Love Songs - Optimism (As a Radical Life Choice) Lyrics

The pain is back in my chest again.
Holding me down like a high school friend.
Says the world's about to end,
You best start swimming.
You said anxiety's the theme of all our lives these days.
Can't even have my coffee without exploiting someone,
Or making another millionaire a billionaire.

What would it take to be happy?
I'd probably start with their money.

It's the clear backpacks.
It's the two new fire exits.
I'm buying a beer.
Don't want to think of where I'm running
If another asshole takes a shot.
It's the city burning down
While I stare at dirty pics you sent me.
And hiding in the desert,
But I taste the ocean in my snot.

Trying to find my footing.
I know you're sick of looking.

Don't take me out back and shoot me.
I know my circuits are faulty.
And I've only ever been a kid
Pointing out dead dogs on the road.
Take me down in a landslide.
Help me weather this high tide.
I'll wear you out waiting for me to implode.
But don't take me out back and shoot me.

I'm done dying on the inside,
Now that everything is dying outside.
The sky is letting go,
Of holding on, like a crying child.
Armageddon on my mind.
I'll try to smile all the time.
Like hell's a construct that I need
To make amends or keep myself clean.

And yes,
I'm aware it's fleeting.

Because the ocean's gonna rise.
The river's finally gonna overflow
And leave us stranded.
Trying to make it to the other side,
But there's a crack in my lifeboat.
And I'm sinking.
Would you sink with me?