The Postman Video (MV)

Such a lovely morning
Does it mean I'm still alive?
If I close the curtains
Will I be living a lie?

And to make things worse
The postman asked me to smile
But I told him

You are not my sire
I don't need you to tell me what to do
Cuz I ain't a liar
And I only smile if I wanted to

My world is on fire and I want to watch it burn
That's how I entertain myself
Trap myself in its urn
I'll never let go
I judge myself by what I earn
I'm a piece of shit and I know that you know
I'll never learn

As I'm lighting up my cigarette
I realise

That I'm as empty as this bottle
From the night before
I am deranged

And I'm not my sire
Oh I need someone to tell me what to do
My only desire
Is to know where I am going to

I have reached a dead end
I'm afraid I can't take it no more
I have hung myself so I could only fall
Onto the floor
My soul picked me up but damn
Now my knees feeling sore
If that's what it takes, then I won't be
Your prisoner no more

Going up going down
I can't hear you're too loud
Brace myself deep within
It's a battle you can't win
Feeling numb hurting bad
Trying to hold it
Going mad
Can't decay anymore
Who am I doing this for?

You can't blame me
Can't change me
Submission won't tame me
I'm down on my knees
And I'm begging you please

Go away let me be
When I count it to three
Need to get back on track
Cuz I'm not going back

For what it's worth
I will never give in
I'm a mad motherf*cker
And that's how it always has been

You can't take it from me
Cuz it's under my skin
And
I will never give in

Cuz I'm not my sire