I live in a fixed mix betwixt heaven and hell
Resisting the help and held up by nickels of piff
Sip deliciousness, this sickening mystery slipped into elixirs
That'll get your inhibitions dismissed
Jaded to love and it may be because I was pained by a number of dames
Now I remain in my bubble
I'd say I'm gracefully stumbling, hazy baked and befuddled
Portray an eighth of the numbness, something I've Trained to be such
No one's as painfully troubled, double the drank in my cup
F*ck it, I came to be chugging, munching the pavement for lunch
Cause it's the life that I chose, might be the wrong road
And I might just be predisposed from my life to my Chromosomes
From the life that I had at home with the fights and the nights alone
Need enlightenment going nowhere despite My atonement
My over compensation for poverty with intelligence honestly isn't helping my problems But I can relish in all of the Common follies I'm probably gonna delve within
Develop different methods for messing up my development
No I'm no hero, I'm my own worst enemy
I live in a dark cloud between the Earth and the moon
A serpent behind a curtain that's lurking to find the truth
And certainly kill uncertainty, burgeoning is my doom
Urgently do emergency surgery in my room
Lobotomies all around, prodigies on the ground
How could I think my novelty artistry's bombing towns
I'm honestly falling down
But who am I to blame but the dude that I see when staring in mirrors here is my pain
Brought it upon myself, with selfish ways and apathy
My pursuit of lust and my lack of trust in my faculties
Rhyming is a rush so I'm rushing until they tackle me
And chugging like a Russian til I'm busting through the balcony
It's life, I really wanna live it the best
A little respect, mix it with a bit of success
I sit and expect, work is how you get it for less
Admit it's a test, commit until you're dripping in sweat, yes
Until my dreams have all become "Oh look at this again."
I gotta listen to the voices that are whispering
Make a change and try to act a little different
Or f*ck up my development til I develop discipline