Speech Debelle - Elephant in the Living Room Lyrics

The lies weren't created to hurt you
I should have known the only way out was through
Should have rolled up my sleeves
And started moving this elephant out the living room
A lick of paint 'cause the walls felt clinical
The couch became my own hot seat this is my life
But aint no Aspel it's just us two
I needed more the bedroom was a chore
Hiding from my own thoughts a prisoner of love
'Cause I knew that you needed me I thought was enough
Over time I just became stuck.
And it weren't that you weren't special to me, yes
I can read that expression clearly
You got a look like I'm trying to patronise you
But I'm telling you the truth I'm tired of hiding from you.
I'm looking in zoom, but it's not tunnel vision
'Cause spread the pieces like a puzzle and put it back together listen listen.v
I can't do this any longer
I'm tired
And if I stay her any liar
A liar, a liar, a liar
I'll be a liar
A liar, a liar, a liar
You'll call me a liar

I know you're not weak but you're human
And I been hurt before so it kills me to do
I feel like I'm the one to destroy it I should have never allowed us to pursue
Now I feel so stupid
The moment that I had second thoughts
I shouldn't push it the back of my mind like it's a chore
I guess that's reason this elephant is now in the middle of our living room floor feeding of my own fears that leaving you will leave me lonely.
I love how much you love me, I love how much you show me,
I love the way you want to let go when you hold me
I guess I'm in love with my own selfishness
And I'm sittin' here acting like its selflessness
You deserve more than this.
This is crowding us and is the reason its
Looking like I'm the egotist, yeah insecurity is the same as this

I can't do this any longer
I'm tired
And if I stay her any liar
A liar, a liar, a liar
I'll be a liar
A liar, a liar, a liar
You'll call me a liar

I cant do this anymore
I cant do this anymore
I cant do this anymore
I cant do this anymore