Steven Wilmot - This Is Me Trying Lyrics

I've been bruised and broken for so long now
Hoping to get myself back
The person who died so long ago
Will he ever come back
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
I am busted, damaged and abused
But this is me trying

Waking up in a fit of terror
Hoping to never feel that way again
Crying myself to sleep
While you just laughed at me
All these thoughts I wish would just leave
But they just won't go away
I just want you to know
That this is me trying

I just want you to know
That this is me trying
Oh, I was trying
I was trying
What you put me through
Everything you said
Still haunts my dreams
It's time for me to leave
Before it's too late
And now it's too late

You didn't care what I was going through
You made it hard to believe in you
Couldn't admit that we were sick
Color draining from my face as I just laid there thinking
I don't want this anymore
All the lies and suicidal thoughts
All the bruises that you gave me
Broken hearted and mistreated

Punishing myself in secret
While my soul slowly drifted away
(And it drifted away)
I just wanted you to know
That this was me trying
Fatal thoughts run through my head
But this was me trying

I just wanted you to know
That this was me trying
And I'm trying
I'm trying
I was trying
I'm done trying
I'm done trying
I just wanted you to know
That this was me trying

And I'm trying
I'm trying
I was trying
I'm done trying
I'm done trying
I'm dying
I'm dying
Oh, I'm dying
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