Stillo K - On The Surface Lyrics

I'm lost inside but I'm ok on the surface we were joking
It's never what it seems on the surface, everything better on the surface
I was just in my room heart on the floor and my head all in my hands
Lost what I loved, who I loved and who I've became
Holding onto something that's not there
Holding onto someone that is not here
Collapsing in a pool of my vices
I'm black listed to the ones who know my prices
Console me when I need it
Counsel me when I'm honest
Roll me something honest
Tell me something honest
My spirit is away when I'm less than aware, bring me down to earth if you care
I let you into my sacred place
Lost my mind trapped out in space
It's the darkest hour when you decide to leave
Natural LSD to help me think
No one cares to listen when I choose to speak
Maybe there's something wrong with me
Show me what you can see
It's raining blood on me
Nightmares in my dreams
Nightmares in my dreams
New friends in the middle of the mirage
New girl pretty cuz she listen to Solange
It getting hotter than a Florida garage
Why are we focused on trying to become so large
Are we holding onto false hope and the memories
A mistake made in parenting
Leading to something more divine than the feminine
Holding onto mine cuz what's not is not yours, I'm reaching for mine
Are you here to save me
(Help me)
Are you here to save me
(Help me)
A million in one chance to come falling out the sky
Off white how I knew angels could fly
Gasping for air like I'm at the finish line
I could put you on the line
I could put you on the live
I could pick a five-a-side
And not have room for my guys
No it's not you that should be there by my side
I'm still broken on the inside, ever since that night when I finally realized
I wanna set fire to what's mine
Set fire to my eyes