Piece in Mind Video (MV)

I don't know how
I should be feeling now
It's hard to be a person
It's hard to be a human
I just want to
Learn to love myself and you
I try to speak but it doesn't work
I want to take away the hurt

But when I look out my window I can't help but sit and smile
For all these things I never thought I'd see again
So I thank a friend or whatever helped get me out alive
And she tells me that she's surprised I'm still alive

I can see what you meant
When you said I lack commitment
It's hard to be a good friend
When you want to be dead
I'm sorry I'm frustrating
But thank you for waiting
All your patience
Despite my situation

So I can't pretend that I have never done anyone wrong
'Cause I create enemies like no one else
But I'm trying to rearrange my mind to reflect on my faults
I'm a natural villain
But perhaps I could be something more