[ Featuring dj poolboi ]
When I'm in the dark
I long for the light
But I feel alive
At night
I keep lingering in the alleyway
My friends told me not to mind
Biting fingernails until
Blood comes out
It's a habit I can't hide
Yeah
Maybe I'm even worse than
All of his reputations combined
Yeah
I'm not the best at knowing myself
I'm loving the pain and I don't know why
Yeah
And I don't know why
Maybe I don't really mind
Yeah
I don't really mind
Maybe I just wanna feel high
Yeah that's what it's like to be alive
Maybe they will say oh my
Think I never seen you so wild
I'm in love with this pain
And I don't know why yeah
And I don't know why
Maybe I don't really mind yeah
I don't really mind yeah
Fighting all the tides
Low highs all combined
I get sick and tired
They say love your enemies
But my enemy's all I fall for in life
Shadows and demons made up my time
I get used to their cold eyes
Maybe I'm even worse than
All of his reputations combined
Yeah
I'm not the best at knowing myself
I'm loving the pain and I don't know why
Yeah
And I don't know why
Maybe I don't really mind
Yeah I don't really mind
Maybe I just wanna feel high
Yeah that's what it's like to be alive
Maybe they will say oh my
Think I never seen you so wild
I'm in love with this pain
And I don't know why yeah
And I don't know why
Maybe I don't really mind yeah
I don't really mind yeah
Feel high
Yeah that's what it's like to be alive
Maybe they will say oh my
Think I never seen you so wild
I'm in love with this pain
And I don't know why yeah
And I don't know why
Maybe I don't really mind yeah
I don't really mind yeah
I don't really mind yeah
I don't really mind yeah
But my enemy's all I fall for in life
And I don't know why
Maybe I don't really mind yeah
I don't really mind yeah