I am reminded of things in my past
I am convinced my delusions are facts
Oh the future might bring incredible things
But I'll kick and I'll scream until I intervene with it
I'm not immune to specific attacks
I'm too far gone and I'm not coming back
Oh I shouldn't share things it's starting to scare me
I'll rationalize until you can provide the facts
I stay up too late, I wake up too early
And I'm always late and I am unworthy
Any time I try to rhyme it sounds forced
Hate what you create until you find the source
Oh all I'm fighting for
Are goosebumps and heart jumps a little bit more
I'm not subscribed to the current events
I am just trying to cover my rent
Oh the world is a mess, I'm a ball of stress
And I don't wanna know
I think that it's for the best
I want perfection but I'm not exact
I'm just not sure I can take all the flack
Oh I'm careful to wait
Remember the date
I'm a little ashamed
But i promise I'll keep coming back
I stay up too late, I wake up too early
And I'm always late, oh I'm in a hurry
More than a moment more than a gift
More than those seconds I'd like to relive
I want a comfort that I cannot find
I'll stop asking questions when I get a sign
Any indication and I'll get back to the grind.