sxlace - Memoir Lyrics

I've been stuck in my head and I'm wasting my time
Locked in my room and I'm wasting my life yeah
Shawty left fast and she never came back
Drowning in thoughts take me back to the past
Seeing them drugs made me wanna relapse
Pushing out friends and they never looked back
I'm feeling so invalid as of lately
My comfort is evil to you
But it's like none of y'all see
I'm buried in my traumas too
I'm hiding them good but I can feel myself losing my screws
I don't wanna be seen as a burden
I'm constantly living inside of my hell it's been hurting
Now please don't waste your time on me
I've been hurting you all and now you'll be free
Free from the burden that you know as "sxlace"
You'll move on with life and it'll be flawless

I am the last person that would go villainize
It honestly hurt that you never realized
I struggled with pills for like three f*cking years
Homie got me hooked onto tecs when I was 14
Overdosed twice and I never had help
Thrown to the night just to suffer in hell
Kicked out the house and I slept on the porch
Crying alone and my brain wanted more
I don't want none of your pity but sometimes I wish I died
This life ain't right but I won't suicide
I've ruined my year clean streak
Brand new marks on the arm remind me that shit gets hard
But it's not an excuse to leave again
Even if you feel like you're better off dead

Can you still see me?
Please don't fall asleep
When your eyes come closed
I'll run away a
Can you still see me?
Please don't fall asleep
When your eyes come closed
I'll run away a

Rachel OD'd and she never woke up
Stuck in a bathroom with her chest face up
Hazel OD'd and her last text was "Help"
They were in a pain that no one could've felt
Since I was 12 I've been surrounded by death
It's nothing to flex but nah it's burned in my chest
Stare at the ash box I tried my best
But now it's time to leave them to rest
Yeah
Cry on the mic I've been feeling so alone yeah
DND on barely checking my phone
Barely go outside always stuck at home
Day to day life has got me exhausted
Friends push me to live but I really don't want it
Flushed all my pills but they come back to haunt me again
Only feel sane if I know where the cabinet is
Maybe now I can make my amends

Can you still see me?
Please don't fall asleep
When your eyes come closed
I'll run away again
Never look back
Can you still see me?
Please don't fall asleep
When your eyes come closed
I'll run away again
Never look back