T. Karras - Lots of Losses Lyrics

Everybody has their wins
Me I have my losses
And I'm known as a loser
Because that's what I am
I've lost so many times, I don't know a win
I've had a lot of my work thrown in the trash bin
I pretend like I know how to play the game
But I'm the worst player around and it's a real shame
I keep on going, even though my efforts are for naught
I think I'm doing good and what do you know? I get shot
Then I exit from the hospital, still alive
Why in the f*ck do I even try?
I'm just hoping that things will get better one day
So I can finally mean something, have something to say
My everlasting dream is to influence the world...
With the sounds and the beats like prophecy foretold
But I don't know yet how the f*ck I'm going to win
I don't even know when the story begins...
So I'm forced to walk the earth as the role of a dumb fool
I wish I were smart, I wish I had gone to school
I'm just a guy with a lot of losses
And I don't know how I'm going to stop it
I'm just a guy with a lot of losses
And I don't know how I'm going to stop it
I'm an embarrassment to my family
It's gotten so bad, that they no longer believe
That I can be anything except a class clown
I'm just a rappin' guy who wants to be underground
I made mixtape after mixtape just trying to blow up
And I filled myself with hate, let myself become corrupt
Deluded myself into thinking I was one of the best
But then I took a step back, realized I was being racist
I brought myself to new lows, I didn't even think
I insulted some rapper, didn't know I was at the brink...
Of destruction... I couldn't even resist
Now I got myself a cease and desist
And then I opened my eyes and what do I see?
This very big thing called reality
And it's harsh as shit, couldn't comprehend
I couldn't go back, so this is where my story began
I'm just a guy with a lot of losses
And I don't know how I'm going to stop it
I'm just a guy with a lot of losses
And I don't know how I'm going to stop it
I have to keep trying because that's what I know
Even though it's impossible I'm going to blow
It's like Lopez and his comedy dream
I can't give up on it, you know what I mean?
Feels like I was born to do this
Even though people call me foolish
I've already learned so much rap
So much so, that it's impossible for me to go back...
To the life I've lived, all the torment and pain
All the people hating me, such an emotional drain
I've tried so hard just to appeal to people
I've only now realized that it's deadly lethal
I'm doomed to get losses forever
But as they always say, never say never
Even though I know how this will go
I'm going to make a win out of this scenario
And that's all I know