CaN't FiNd mY sMiLe Video (MV)

(Sagittarius got sum here)

Lemme make something very clear
Y'all don't f*cking know me
But I will let y'all know something though
It's been a minute since I've gotten the chance to actually speak
Say what the f*ck I want to say
(No interruptions)
Do what the f*ck I want to do
(No one cutting me off)
Now y'all just gotta watch

I'm stone faced with bitter tastes in my mouth
I've gone south I can't return I need space
I'm locked out of my brain out my house
It seems loud sometimes but this ain't your place

Feel free to leave at anytime I don't care
These niggas gone so fast they like some thinning hair
They say I switched up that statement is not fair
This how I've always been you just haven't been there

I've been losing my smile since I was thirteen
Man I was putting up fronts it wasn't what it seemed
I felt out the loop I felt crazy
I didn't know who I was, split personalities

I was looking around trying to get certified
By some niggas with girls around them like fruit flies
They was lost like me but I was f*cking blind
That shit I could not see had tightly closed eyes

I hadn't opened them til now, now all I see is frowns
A constant front of feeling proud while trying not to drown
These people tell them how to live and that shit bring them down
You is not Jesus nigga you just a f*cking clown

They've been thrown in the deep end from the beginning
Told don't express your feelings and to keep them hidden
That shit just eats them up inside but they keep on living
They just hope that it goes away but it keeps on hitting

If you cry you're not a man is what I've been told
So then those tears just turn to anger and that anger grows

Angry at the fact that you can't tell a nigga shit
Without the possibility of being crucified or lynched
On social media the toxic hoes and trolls roam
They want to chip at your broken parts and steal your soul
Look no soul goes untouched by corrupted lips
No matter what you'll fall victim to false endearment

These people ain't real they made of cheap old f*cking plastic
They teeth is rotting from the shit they say it's bombastic
Quick to tell me good things make me feel fantastic
Looking at your smirk bitch I know that shit sarcastic

Double-crossers backstabbers those are just some classics
It don't matter what they called just know they like some acid
They're quick to call you twofaced when they've been problematic
When all you've done is been there for them trying to clear their static


Sometimes it feels like I'm forcing the smile
At least lately it has
You know like the past couple years I just
I haven't been feeling it
Like like somethings been missing
Like
Maybe it's something I need to do something I need to change
But I don't what it is I don't know

But maybe I'll figure it out you know
Maybe someone or something will come my way
Who knows?