tay laylo - just another BPD episode Lyrics

I had her heart and then I did her wrong
Embarrassed now, I couldn't put your name in this f*ckin' song
I know you tearin' up, it's me to blame I cried and I never cry, two reasons I should be ashamed
My heart been feelin' heavy, that's the outcome of me missin' you
Went to sleep and had a faint dream that I was kissin' you
You do me like I did you, swear to God I'd be dissin' you
Another day, another lifetime, I'm always pickin' you
My bitch ain't doin' nothin' wrong and I can't even love her right
Devil talkin' to me every time we link, I start a fight
I told you not to give me love, I'll panic and abuse it
I told you it ain't nothin' I'ma put before this music
A January baby when I love, yeah, I love hard
And I'm afraid to see myself go crazy, so I keep a guard
I swear you must be thirsty way you drank up all my lies
Knew what I was doin', knew who I was with, but you just cried
When I saw them tears runnin' down your face, I almost died
But I'm selfish, I didn't wanna put my pride to the side
When you got up and you left me, baby girl, I was lost
I was focused on my album goin' number one, but look what it cost
I'm at the peak of my prime and now these hoes want a taste
But I'm still thinkin' bout them memories I'll never erase
You kept it solid with me, baby, it is not your fault
I never thought the day would come when I would have to see you walk right outta that door
Two weeks and I ain't seen or heard from you
I'm hopin' that you hear me, girl, I wrote these words for you
Yellin' at the sky like why you took my world from me
I ain't crazy, but about my bitch, I'll take the world from you
Tequila in my cup like what we finna do now
Talkin' crazy on the internet, I look like a clown
Mama tellin' me I'm lost, but I done lost it all
My daddy preachin' to me, this the price that it's gon' cost to ball
I wish I never...
FUCK
GAH DAMN
I CAN'T DO THIS SHIT NO MORE