ThekidGhost - Lost Lyrics

I haven't wrote a song in a while
I lost my pen, now I barely crack a smile
Im just your typical kid
Talking about this crazy life I've lived
See people ask if I'm okay
Honestly, I don't know what to say
I wanna say yes and I wanna say no
What I'm going through people don't know
Im battling these thoughts on my mind
Happiness is what I'm searching to find
These thoughts are sharp like a weapon
And my past leads me to depression
I got 99 problems but I've never been the one to show em
Keep my emotions bottled up, Ive never wanted to expose em
See, you can thank that to depression
My happiness was intercepted
Im praying to God while fighting these demons
Abusing these drugs to escape my feelings
As of lately I been feeling numb
I really don't know where these thoughts come from
One minute I'm happy the next I am not
Im playing tag of war with these thoughts
Im honestly just trying to win
Feels like quick sand that I stepped in
Cuz lately I been feeling stuck
Its days like these where I wanna give up
I haven't been feeling like myself
This is my way for calling out for help
I sit back and keep my distance
I feel like people don't get it
Speaking in lyrics, it rolls off the tongue
Painting a portrait of where I come from
Sit back, relax, its barely begun
Really put my heart into song
The 808s yeah that's my heartbeat, I live for this shit
They used to tell me I was different and shit
But then I came back with the penmanship
All those lonely nights paid off, didn't it?
All that time that I spent in my room
Dealing with the "Dark Side of the Moon"

I pushed away all my loved ones and fell into this hole
All these dark thoughts buried me I was digging my own grave real slow
Mentally I was messed up and emotionally I was broke
I burned all of those bridges, told myself I had no where to go

I pushed away all my loved ones and fell into this hole
All these dark thoughts buried me I was digging my own grave real slow
Mentally I was messed up and emotionally I was broke
I burned all of those bridges, told myself I had no where to go