Before
I had you
Now
I have nothing
My responsibilities are all towards things
Made of bricks and stones
Of plastic and foam
Lifeless
Before
Life was you
Now
I see death everywhere
All I need to do is take a walk in the park
Or simply enter the house
Every inch of myself
Is Self less
Funny thing about this is
One of your favourite places
Was a veteran's graveyard
When I lose this battle
If I'm buried there
I'll feel closer to you forever
Then I hold your ashes in my hands
I realise someday
I'll also become ashes
I try my best
But I fail
To see the point
In anything and everything
I've done enough for the world
My death could be more inspiring
Than my life at this moment
I feel I'm dragging my body
From place to place
To fulfill expectations
I never believed in
Before
I had you
To keep
Me going
Now
I have nothing