Third Eye Blind - Shipboard Cook Lyrics

I wanna go to the ocean
And send a postcard of my loneliness
Forgetting you is so elusive
I run away but it's always this
You're the only one
I love
It's always been you

And I wish I was conscripted in the Merchant Marines
Shanghaied into service to sails and machines just to stay alive
And my sister keeps it simple she's a shipboard cook
She can run line, but if you take a look, it's not easy though

'Cause I'm hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
I'm always a ghost

I tried your gypsy tarot readings, some seance stunt
I keep an open mind but I think it's just a front
Want to believe it though

My sister says: "Forget her boy, that's all that you need"
She pitches magical elixirs, potions full of mead for a broken heart
It's too late for that

And I try to keep it simple
I try to keep it true
It's always been you
It's always been you
When you sailor boys brag about the hearts that they broke
It's all just a joke
It's all just a boast
Yeah yeah yeah, oh
I'm always a ghost

You're about as haunted as a darkened basement
I've got all the chances of a dog in a settlement
She may have her secrets, she'll never tell
I ride along without 'em on a deep sea swell
I heard there's something new, she starts to talk
She's the merry widow on the widow's walk
And they say: "What do you fear what are you running from?"
The only thing I fear is when I go numb

And I'm hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Yeah yeah yeah

And I try to keep it simple
I try to keep it true
It's always been you
It's always been you
When you sailor boys brag about the hearts that they broke
It's all just a joke
It's all just a boast
Yeah yeah yeah, oh

I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost