throwaway - Fix My Faults (feat. prod. astral) Lyrics

I feel like I'm falling off now
Of the clouds they're pouring down now,
I can see
I can be
Anything
That I want now.
Oh no I'm a loner
I prefer being a stoner
And a donor
I donate my heart
To those around me
In case I depart.
Oh no
They found me out,
If they know
Will they cast doubt?
It's all on me
To be free
If I'm not
I can never be.
Sometimes I can see myself
In the mirror decline of my health
So steadily medically, f*ckin up myself mentally.
Fix my faults
I should've been the one to fall
I should've been the one to call
I should've picked up the phone
I shouldn't have done this all alone
Now I'm chilling to my bone
Oh I wish I would've known
Future me aint at home.
Fix my faults
I should've been the one to fall
I should've been the one to call
I should've picked up the phone
I shouldn't have done this all alone
Now I'm chilling to my bone.
In my head questioning existence
Existential dread in the abyss and
Is there mercy waiting for me
Or is it pain can peace be obtained?
Oh no I'm in my head again
Does it matter or is it just pretending
I'm fine I'll comply,
Do whatever you want,
So long as I'm high
I'm asking why,
Must I fix my faults?
Must I be the one to call?
Must I pick up the phone?
Must I do this all alone?
Why am I chilling to my bone?
Oh I wish I didn't know
Reality aint set in stone.