TILAR - Thirteen Lyrics

I've been around for a minute
I've been sleeping on the grass
Sneaking out of class
Testing boundaries and limits

Tried to make my mama laugh
Make the moments last
I'm the master of mimic
The only one I can't please is myself
I'm a shell

I can smile in a heartbeat
I try to hide the pain
Cope to find a way
But when I'm alone with the music

I am singing out my heart
Seeing all my scars
When I am alone with the music
A song feels just like sunlight on my skin
I soak it in

And I know
I am on my own
When it comes to show
My will to welcome all my ghosts
To live with them and be their host

And you feel them too
They are in the room
They're in my head and veins, they're a part of me
There's no remedy

It's easy to lose faith in fear
It's easy to break down in tears
From the pain
That you felt a long time ago
When you pushed

Your hurt and your feelings aside
It's harder to heal when you hide
From the pain
That you felt a long time ago
When you were only thirteen

I've been told that I'm different
Tried to fit in with the rest
Always second-guessed
Cause I never know where I'm standing
Wish I was a tree
Rooted in the deep dark ground
No limits
Cause people pleasing's just waste of time
For my peace of mind

And I know
I'mma find a way
Differentiate
Between what's now and what's passé
Cause all my ghosts are here to stay

And a voice is saying I am heard
Worthy of a world
Where friends will hold my hand
Through pain and fear
Till it dissappears

It's easy to lose faith in fear
Easy to break down in tears
From the pain
That you felt a long time ago
When you pushed

Your hurt and your feelings aside
Harder to heal when you hide
From the pain
That you felt a long time ago
When you were only thirteen

Huh
Huh
Huh
You were only thirteen yeah
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