Well it won't stop raining leading up to graduation
Had to put it on Mother's Day for me
As if that day wasn't hard enough to pretend I don't have to grieve
Your birthday
Should have been one week ago
Thank god I can remember that
Cause I don't know
If I can remember your laugh
Smile smile smile
Look, everybody else is smiling
Don't be a downer
Smile smile smile
Look, everybody else is smiling
Don't think about her
When it turns into December
I try not to remember the day my mom was taken away from me
And every year all the bull shit 'cheer' makes me wish that it was Halloween
The funny thing is Halloween she used make me my mask
And I'm wearing it everyday in case somebody's going to ask
Me to
Smile smile smile
Look, everybody else is smiling
Don't be a downer
Smile smile smile
Look, everybody else is smiling
Don't think about her
You
Expect me to grieve
Compartmentalize my mother at fifteen
You
Well you better believe
At twenty-two I'll still be bursting at the seam
Well it won't stop raining leading up to graduation- had to put it on Mother's Day for me
Smile smile smile smile smile