TJay - Real Lyrics

What it do what it do what it do man
This a story bout when I was youth man
This is how I done got to see my views yeah
This is how I done met all the crew yeah
I was hating myself I ain't have no help
All that pain I felt wanna hang by belt
No one want me man don't taunt me man
I don't give no f*ck pour a drink in my cup
I was buying and selling 'til they started telling
Meanwhile I'm crafting my songs hitting bongs
Where did I go wrong what the hells going on
Why I feel so alone why don't home feel like home
Why don't home feel like home
Why they hating on the kid for
Why no one ever really gave a shit for

This is how I used to feel
Every day it was real
Told my mom she shouldn't ever had me
Every night I used to hurt myself badly
This is how I used to feel
Every day it was real
This is how I used to feel
Every night it was real

Man I grew up with no dad
And I blame myself made me hurt real bad
And I grew up looking different
Used to get bullied by the kids that was ignorant
And I'd come home and my mom would be drinking
Never got attention so my brain would be thinking
I don't know why the f*ck I'm here
I don't know why I'm not accepted by my peers
I don't know why I shouldn't end it all tonight
I don't know why I wanna die every night
Why I cry every night
Till I finally had enough
Went to go end it cause my life it was tough
Then I ran away and prayed
God if you're there I'm so damn afraid
I can't keep doing this tell me if you're there
God heard my prayer and He answered man I swear

I don't gotta feel like this no more
I don't gotta question what's real no more
Jesus saved my life that night
You can know God if you know how to ask Him right
I don't gotta feel like this no more
I don't gotta question what's real no more
Jesus saved my life that night yeah that's right
That's why I preach every single time I write