Tortoiseshell the Cat - Back in the Day Lyrics

Look at this snow all over the place
My depression strikes me again
The devil taught me how to quit it
But I wasn't a quitter back in the day

Pretending I can fake it
The lies and the void of being who I am
My father has a lover and she has a tattoo
In this tattoo is written his name

That's not someone that loves you
That's someone to feel the pain
That's not someone that loves you
That's someone to feel the pain

My baby died two months after my wedding
I cried and cried all over the place
I asked god for forgiveness
But he didn't know mercy back in the day

The devil told me to leave it
Explaining my lungs wouldn't be the same
I said I didn't care
I wasn't a leftist back in the day

Someone didn't love me
Someone didn't feel my pain (Someone to feel your pain)
I didn't love myself (Someone to love you)
I didn't feel my pain

Now I am a quitter and I am sober and also i consider myself a satanist.
I wasn't wonderful back in the day, but I am now
And honestly that's lit