[ Featuring Z-Ro ]
Too many problems on my mind
Living shife is starting to be
A full time grind
I'm just trying to live my life
But somehow peace is something
I'll never find
Too many problems on my mind
Living shife is starting to be
A full time grind
I'm not trying to lose my life
But if I do, I wanna' meet Jesus Christ
I never thought that I would have
To be back like this
But my pain never let me get away
I don't wanna' be up under the grave
But every time I turn around
There ain't another nigga safe where I stay
I know I can't get around it
Cause it's a part of life
And everybody got to go sometimes
80% of my niggas dead, the other 10 locked
The last 10, around here crying
Lord I feel like this can't
Be fair to a nigga
But I know that I got to make due
Too many situations will put a brick
Wall up on a nigga
But either way I got to make it through
I know a lot of shit come my way
But it's ok
I know it probably could've been a lot worse
I ain't dead, I ain't in a hearse
But still I got to deal with the
Fact that a nigga feeling curse
I need to let it out, so I spit it in a verse
And it ain't too safe
But it's stuck in my chest now a days
I don't even wanna' answer my cell phone
Cause that's bad news at it's best
F*ck rest, I never ever seen peace
Unless it was a piece that I
Was packing on the block
Hard times ain't too far
That's why I stay strapped
And pray to God so that he can make it stop
Shife ain't the way that a nigga wanna be
But circumstance can get a nigga
Put up in a cross
I don't wanna' take another loss
But a nigga stress got me looking
Teary eyed when I floss
Death ain't never been a friend
Of mine in my life
And I bet that nigga know my name
I've been fighting with his ass for 24 years
And with the way shit look
Ain't nothing gon' change
I got my phone call the day my
Nigga done got hit with a bid
Probably for the things that he did
I don't wanna' see my nigga doing time
And he said I was all that he had
With his wife and his kids
How the f*ck am I supposed to deal with that?
Plus my nigga never did nothing wrong
Now I gotta know my nigga locked
Up in a steel cage
With a thought that he never coming home
I don't wanna' feel certain shit
But I know that I got to
I never knew why I got to run to a nigga
All I ever wanted was a piece of mine
Plus I got fate but I feel like
It ain't coming to a nigga
Every other day, my little boy sick
But I'm getting strong every time
I see him smile
I don't give a f*ck what them
Folks telling me bout Nick
They can never understand my child
Plus Little Gerald ain't mine
But I promised to God for them two
I'll put it on the line
They the only ones left that remind me of me
Long as they live
I give a f*ck if I'm dying
I remember, back when Nicky got that time
My nigga Ship helped me to maintain
To put up my f*cking nigga
Who lost his T-Jones
I know it's only right for me
To go and do the same i gotcha'
I ain't finna' let nothing happen
To ya' my nigga
Just know that ya' gotta stay strong
Look at all the bullshit I go through
Probably only one-eight off it make
It to a song
Something, I put up then I go into a zone
With a attitude niggas better leave me alone
Ain't too many other ways a nigga understand
Unless this man put a hot slug in his dome
Motherf*ckers never understand why I
Feel like I do
Until they start to get it like I do
Everybody now a days
Think they can take it like I do
But never see the shit I go through
I been a grown man
How the f*ck am I supposed to cope
Watching my nigga laying stretched out
Shit be so close
I don't know who gonna' be next to go
That's why guerrilla stay stressed out
I don't wanna' do time in a
Pen for me killing a nigga
But I ain't finna' let 'em broke me off
Plus Dickey taught me not to ever
Let a nigga get close
So they can never get to f*ck me off
My nigga we do it Ag-town in
The street it f*cking me up
Cause they fam with the wrath of Trae
And every time I spit it out for the hood
I be repping the squad
And let 'em know that I be blue over grey
I ain't been around much
But I swore my niggas on my mind
And I don't wanna' be by myself
And I don't know who to trust when
I hit the block by myself
So I proceed to be by myself
And every time I get sad
I'm in the zone all by myself and
So I gotta' roll by myself
And I don't need no friend no bitch
So I find myself
I'm in the class all by myself
I'm on they ass all by myself
Stress run at me like a relay
Plus I never get to win
I really don't wanna' sin
But I know if I want to survive
And lead back to the dividends
I hope God get to hear a nigga cry
As time goes by
And I can finally get to ease my mind
But for now I gotta' deal with the
Life that I don't wanna' deal
And hope everything'll be fine