Trance - False hope Lyrics

Broken illusions, I'm losing energy
Hopeless confusion on top of jealousy
If you only knew the things you do to me
Been waiting for what feels like an eternity
For you to come home and tell me you loved me
All along I wish you could trust me
Maybe I'm wrong and it's all a fantasy
But I'd be dumb to get caught in memories, so
Let me off the f*cking hook then
I'm not interested in playing pretend
I'm just trying to grow my brand
And now we're at a standstill stranded with no plan
Did you ever really want it in the first place
Am I really that easy just to erase
Did you ever really want it in the first place
Am I really that easy just to erase
Do you think maybe one day you can spare me the truth
Instead you make me second guess all of the years of my youth
I used to dream, I used to pray that I would fall in love
But I'll admit I shied away when push came to shove
So now
I sit in my room
Filling lines to songs with words I never said to you
I'll finally tell the truth
I thought that our love was yet to bloom
I felt at home with you
And you left me no room to assume
And now I struggle to
Trust myself to know when something's real
But I picture you
Up at night just staring at the moon
Like I used to do
Summer nights at the tail end of June
Thinking of calling soon
Tell me how it is you really feel
Life is too short to conceal
A love like this is too surreal
I was wrong, you were right
It's just scary to reveal
I'll be real with you 'cuz I know you can see through
The little lies that I would tell and the times I'd mislead you
I truly failed to recognize
The pain I held behind my eyes
I just wanna see you, and maybe we can see through
The life we dreamt together, shit,
I guess maybe a redo
But back to real life, I lay awake in bed
Thinking back to all the words I wish that you had said
We'll live forever even if it's only in my head
Tied together by a tether with the thinnest thread
I just hope you live your truth
That's the real fountain of youth