Trance - her Lyrics

We stared thoughtlessly at the ground
Nothing left to do or say
I just like having you around

Takes a while to shed your skin
And even longer to learn how to let someone in

We spent days in the sun
Parading our love
Always thought that it'd be enough
But somewhere along the way
You kept straight, and I wandered away

We both know you'll be gone tomorrow
Everything we know will change
You will never see me the same
But do you have a night that I can borrow?
Let's pretend for one more night
That everything will be alright
And tomorrow, I'll learn how to live without you

I remember vividly
The day that I called Megan
And I broke down like a baby

Said I'm living a life that is not mine to lead
How do I walk away after asking if she
Would take my hand till the day
That one of us fails to breathe?

I wish I grew up being told that it's okay
Always felt that being gay meant
Being wrong and living afraid

"A man should live his life
Proud and true"
And yet the closer I got to true
I was made to be less of a man by you

I try hard not to harbor resentment
I know you were confused
'Cuz I never told you the truth
But your job was to create
A home
Where your son
Would feel
Supported and not alone

So I spent my nights
In my mind
Sending love to the kid inside
Who might not have made it otherwise

I pull that kid in tight
Let him cry, let him cry
I'm here to tell you
It's gonna be alright

But we both know that you'll be gone tomorrow
Everything I know will change
And you will never see me the same
But do you have a single night I can borrow?
Let's pretend for tonight
Everything will be alright
And tomorrow I'll learn to live on my own

I still hear your cries sometimes
In the same way I hear mine
And I hated myself for years and years and years

I still hear your cries sometimes
In the same way I hear mine
But I hated myself for years and years and years and years
And someday
That someday

So don't think that I forgot you
And I'm sure it means nothing now
But thank you for keeping me alive
'Cuz I didn't know how