transients - The Infinite Escape Lyrics

I picked the wrong night to sit and do this to myself again
But It's my only escape
The funny thing is that I know what's waiting in the void for me
The cycle never ends
Somehow it's not enough I've said I feel like dying today
My one mistake was admitting to us both I'd never throw it all away
Back in the emptiness
The familiar crippling weight upon my chest
You say the earth still turns
But how when the air I'm breathing burns?
I know I promised you I'd never give up
But it's 4 in the morning and I think I've finally had enough
It's like I'm living in the wrong dimension
A prisoner in chains I've constructed for myself again
I'll always try to medicate and face it with a smile for you
We both know the only thing I was ever meant to do
The Cycle Never Ends
Don't get me wrong, I'm proud to say I've lived my life with you as a friend
When I know about the hell with which you've had to contend
But I need to find a way to start the process and mend
So I guess I'll have to go it alone in the end
I know I promised you I'd never give up
But it's 4 in the morning and I think I've finally had enough
It's like I'm living in the wrong dimension
A prisoner in chains I've constructed for myself again
I'll always try to medicate and face it with a smile for you
We both know the only thing I was ever meant to do
It's my only escape