Honestly, Video (MV)

Honestly, I don't know how I should start this
All I know is that I am afraid
Afraid of the things that tower before me
And the thoughts attacking my brain
Thoughts like
Am I worthy?
Am I ready? Yeah
'Cause I don't feel like
My hands are steady yet
How can they trust me
When I don't trust myself?
What am I doing?
Should I just stop?
But if I do that my heart would drop
Into pieces on the floor
But nobody cares anymore
No one cares anymore
About how I'm feeling
So I suck it up
Because that's what it means to be growing up
In a world, where nobody knows your name
So I pick up the pieces that lay on the floor
But I realize that some just aren't there anymore
They're not there anymore
No one cares anymore
No one cares anymore
No one cares anymore
Someone care anymore
I'm sick and tired of feeling so helpless
I'm sick and tired of being afraid
How could this be what I was meant for
If I despise everything that I make
I hate the fact that hating me is constantly degrading me
Enraging me and halting me
I'm sick and tired of feeling so helpless
I'm sick and tired of being afraid
Honestly, I don't know how I should end this
Guess I needed that off of my chest
I'm still petrified of tomorrows yet to come
But I guess I'll keep trying my best