Troopa - Troopa's Mind Lyrics

I don't know if God's real
Cause lately he ain't been seeing me
And I doubt it man, shit I ain't perfect
I'm just saying yo
He ain't feeding me
I guess no one is
Hey, that is life
People see my back with a f*ckin knife
People see my mind with their f*ckin eyes
People talking to me, I see through their lies
I've been feeling so down man, and I don't know why
Everything is outta place, and I forgot how to cry
Everything is feeling wrong, and you can see in my eye
And you can see in my soul
All that dark inside
All that doubt no pride
All that truth no lie
All you fake f*ckers bringing out the worst don't hide
Fake f*ckers everywhere, y'all f*cking worldwide
F*ckin worldwide, that y'all f*cking divide man
I swear to god, I swear to god I cannot see me
Livin up on earth I'm feelin so lonely
Feelin so dark, none of y'all can see
I'm feelin chained to the devil I just wanna be free
And they look at me, they think I'm so profound
So facade, I'm no where near found
Look up for God, but he's no where around
Look around for the sign, for the safe and sound
Imagine in the sky dawg everyday was sunny
Where that happiness was free there wasn't need for any money
But I mean this is life
And this life ain't a joke
Take a bite, from the fight, in this life, cause it's right
Make the best of the fight, right to the white light
To the white light, ya I mean death
Fighting everyday, right to your last breathe
Wanna talk about a struggle, wanna hear realshit?

I f*ckin hate mirrors cause I see myself
People looking at me, they don't see my health
People see me working, they don't see my wealth
They don't see me walking, man I hate this hell
They don't see me talking, man I hate this life
Everyday I'm losing in this f*ckin fight
I'll walk towards it if I see the f*ckin light
I wanna slit my throat with a f*ckin knife
See you been gone Troopa, where you been at huh?
People asking for the sound man it seems you gave up
Been three months since you dropped one track
And you ain't making no music so where's all the fuss
And I don't know though, Ryan stop being a bitch
I'm not writing, releasing, I'm sick of this shit
See you're wasting your time, and you don't have a clue
You gon listen to me, and if you don't f*ck you
I picked you up dawg when they pushed you down
Made you smile in the times when you seen a frown
Made you laugh at the times in the mirrors a clown
Made your heart beat faster and stronger, and loud
Made you want, stride, fight for the best
Made your future so bright man, better then the rest
Made you see that life is nothing but tests
Made that organ that's going pump hard in yo chest
Everyday I'm waking up, I'm waking up and I ain't livin
Don't forget about the afterlife or what about is given
I'm not saying be a chicken, I'm just saying don't be sinnin
Everyday could be your last, and everything is not forgiven
Find the things in life that make you happy
Don't be dirty, keep it classy
Keep it real, and keep it nice
Don't lose yourself, and keep the nights
Your mind seen better, chase the cheddar
If it's money, if it's not
Show em what you got man
Show em what you got