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Came across this picture, circling the "s.m"
A pun of sort
Said "you're only one real choice away
From a different leading, a different kind of life"
And at first I felt this peculiar flush of shame
Then eventually that shame turned to anger
Who makes this stuff?
These illusive fomo-triggering frames?
Made "a real choice" to erase my account
Yet my life seemed to remain pretty much the same
But now I'm here with you saying it loud
Like its someone else's cloud
And I can't resist to feel
Impressed by your endurance
This is not the first of times
You've got to come around
My nervous system breakdowns
And pick me from the ground
I look at you with childish eyes
Feeling this is borrowed time
Sooner rather than later
You'll have to feel exhausted
And while you know my ins and outs
I'm completely lost on
You, and your past
It went so fast
Still, on better days
I can catch myself feeling light
My body sways
With the resonance, left and right
I smell my clothes
And sometimes they smell just like you
That's when I'm feeling home
Feeling home again
So the time keeps rushing
And you haven't left me
We're steady now
I have even managed myself a job
And I caught you dreaming
In our living room
And for just one second I joined you inside that dream
But then the anxiousness breaks through again
How am I supposed to think
I'm still clearing damaged goods
Inside my subconscious
And my nervous qualities,
Surely something in my genes,
Might transcend,
Can't defend.
Still, you keep the calm.
And assure me of my worth
That's when I'm feeling home
Feeling home again