I FUCK UP A LOT Video (MV)

Up all night hoping to drink the pain away
Seems to only get worse have you ever
Felt the feeling of being lost and alone
Like nobody even cares for you
Sitting in this room at 1 am thoughts of
Ending it here and not being known till it's
To late watch them all come to my funeral

Acting like they cared for me I keep it
Going for my little one I just have to stay
Strong I really got no where to go but to
Sit here and be mad got no where to go
No matter how hard I try back to the round
About it wouldn't be the first time I got
Kicked to the curb all these wishes none
Of them seem to be possible got me

Yelling In this audible sounding stupid
Stuck in this cubic world no way out
Polluted with people who know nothing
About the Me who know nothing about me
Somedays I just wish I can rise and shine
In reality it's the opposite

I f*ck up a lot no in between yea I f*ck up
A lot so much to the point people despise me
Lost my closest friend I don't even know
Why one day I guess he decided to ditch me

But oh well momma told me you come in
Alone and leave alone never will I put my trust
In these so called friends anymore I done
Learned my lesson I don't folded on bag
Never again

I f*ck up a lot no in between
I f*ck up a lot no in between
I f*ck up a lot to the point where people
Despise me
When will this end I just don't want to see
Them eyes gazing at me anymore
I just want someone to hit my line like
Yo what's up why can't I just ask someone
To hang out like the others feeling left out
Again feeling jaded don't know where
This road will lead me but it doesn't feel
Like it's taking me home
Feels like I'm running in circles I'm still
Broke because I want to speak the truth

It's just taking a lot out of me social media
Talking on the boy a lot of situations
Most of you wouldn't understand
No I don't work a 9-5 I ain't nobodies
Slave never have I acted out of
Pocket stayed true the code they said
Turk you in the zone you should
Probably take a break on the low
Wanting me to just stop and drop
Gotta show them what I'm about
Show them I'm not a f*ck up I have to
Make them millions to make my mom and
Dad proud

I f*ck up a lot no in between
I f*ck up a lot to the point people dispise me
I'm a psychopath the flames are raging
And I still stand in the middle got
These damn record labels trying to tap
Me out through the wire yet their still
Signing all these kids
Listening to this trash like what the
F*ck
I f*ck up a lot no in between