My Turn Video (MV)

Round and around and around again
I see the light but this is not the end
You play and you play and you play your games
But I still cant say your name
Cause it feels like fire in my throat, but i still can't let you go
Round and around and around again
I can see the light but this is not the end

You said you were afraid to lose me
You said you weren't going anywhere
You lied

We were the best friends
You were everything to me
I'll use my one golden ticket for you to listen clearly
Was gonna save it for something
But I'll waste it merely
To tell you in words that I don't know that your smile saved me
And then you, you started ignoring
And one night came along where you finally
Wanted to talk I thought I was excited but you told me
That you had sex with my brother

I don't feel so good
And it feels SO good
I SNAPPED
Into place
This is my world now, you should be proud, you helped create it
I'm not out of my mind, you've just never been in here
And the only way out alive is to be as unforgiving as it is
The game I bait is nothing that you haven't played
Everything I say today are already things
That you've done your way, so you CAN'T be mad at me
I only played by the rules that you've mentally proclaimed
You see, I had to figure them out, the hard way
You pushed me up and down for years, with no sorry's
Kissed me, lead me away, bitch please, give me a break
There's so many though, and they're all stories for another day
You don't know them, but not because I never told you
Cause you never bothered to find out, now it's old news
Let's do it again, and again, yeah that's what your used to
Screw the boozes, let's just flute the same tune
Building up my feelings when you weren't supposed too
I told you it would happen, you don't care, f*ck you
You know what they say if you go and lose the game too
If you can't beat them, then take them with you
The anger has no clue what to do with the sadness
You were my world for so long, and now your absent
You made it very clear that you didn't want it to happen
And not from all of your words but from your actions

I cared about you in ways that I couldn't wait to show you
And now I'll never get to

I tried, and like always you left me behind
You're not coming back, no, not this time
I've got but another chance, and this one is mine
You'll have to go through him first

HI
You don't remember me do you? damn
You of all people should know who I am
Yeah! You're one of the reason I am who I am
You named me, remember, the names, STAN
And you're not getting in here again
No, I'm not like him, you'll need more then amends
To amend the pretend voices in his head
Lucky for you he wants closer instead of revenge

And that's where I come back in
It took me years to leash him up and in the end
He works for me now, the rage fueling the defense
To contend anything else that would wrongly recommend
Before he was destructive, but over time now constructive
From the pain was once reluctant, and he's now productive
You started this with my sibling killing what I trusted
So I'll end it with yours my poetic justice
I'm not lost, I know exactly where I'm not
I sorry the path your on I couldn't walk
I'm sorry that I didn't get to show you what I brought
And I'm sorry that I always felt, but never thought
The up and downs with you are always hurting
You're not who you used to be
When's that girl returning
It's not about the destination but the journey
It's not about you knowing but you learning
Holding you, literally the shoulder to cry on
I said I'll always be with you, whether I like it or not
I held on for so long, where the hell did it go so wrong
Can you tell now that I'm long gone
I didn't get to sing you the love songs
I would have sat down with my guitar and played it
Back in the day as it was one of my favorites
Since its not for you now I guess ill save it
It would have gone something like this

You shouldn't care that I now know what to say
Please don't sleep tonight, but instead dream with me
We can shake this off and know it's all okay
Cause you're someone right here who feels just like me
You shouldn't care that I now know what to say
Please don't sleep tonight, but instead dream with me
We can shake this off and know it's all okay
Cause you're someone right here who feels just like me
You shouldn't care that I now know what to say
Please don't sleep tonight, but instead dream with me
We can shake this off and know it's all okay
Cause you're someone right here who feels just like me
You shouldn't care that I now know what to say
Please don't sleep tonight, but instead dream with me
We can shake this off and know it's all okay
Cause you're someone right here who feels just like me

Round and around and around again
I see the light but this is not the end
You play and you play and you play your games
But I still cant say your name
Cause it feels like fire in my throat
But I still can't let you go
Round and around and around again
I can see the light but this is not the end

I went to go write a love song on the spot
But when I tried this song is what I got
This is not the game I wanted to play
I only did it so I can get myself back into shape
To at least give my head peace to hibernate
And to make my heart finally re-awake
The only thing I have left to say is
Go f*ck yourself