I'm never running no running today
You can not keep me leashed to this chain
Why'd I play games with the devil that day
Tried to change lanes it ain't happen that way
Stuck in the mirror I faded to grey
Black and white screens are all that you see
When looking at me you see that I'm free
You see that I craved emotional things
See that I fell so deep in a game
We just switched up I'm not taking the blame
If you pack up then just take all your thangs
Never look back I won't question a thang
If I pack up you won't see me again
Why would I ask if we can be friends
Why did you say it was cool to be friends
Knowing damn well I will do it again
Knowing damn well I will hate you again
I'm just so tired of making amends
If you cross me you won't cross me again
How did you cross me while holding my hand
This is so crazy I don't understand
Where is my verdict on trial I stand
Standing in place but I'm passing the sand
You just passed me but stretched out your hand
Why would I grab it I don't want amends
Why would I grab it I don't need a hand
Thought I should grab it won't grab again
Why am I here accusing myself
No why am I here misusing myself
Killing my liver and loosing myself
Hurting your feelings and stealing your life
I took out your heart and broke it in pieces
That's was on purpose I swear I'm not evil
I caged up my demons and treated you equal
Ripped out your heart and gave it to people
I fell for those people and treated them equal
My number one was all of those people
Why would I chase you when you want attention
You did your dirt and left me on read
Look bruh like I know I did my dirt
But I just don't understand why we try to make shit even
Like you know breaking down glass homes and then starting a fire
And enjoying the fact that it just burnt down
Like that just don't make sense
Yeah let me finish explaining
Change your permission and blocked all my text
Said you had sex and left him for dead
Then we had sex and then got to attached
Emotional games are the games that we play
While stuck in the middle of changing our lanes
It is what is and we did what we did
I don't hold grudges I realized the fit
It may not match but surely felt right
I wrote a album to cope in the night
I texted you to see how you was feeling
And you just told me that you numb to these feelings
You sick of these dealings
I'm sick of these feelings
We can crash parties a f*ck in the building
Cant obtain peace in the love that we feeling
I missed that feeling when you had feelings
Now we just crashing in porsche 911
Now we just crash where we burn up and
I get so sick when I drink and
You get so sick when you think and
I know I'm bad but you seen my good
Take me for me but you misunderstood
I'm dying inside from these problems I hold
If I tell secrets my spirit will go
To places I know my cards never fold
My spirit is old and my faith has been tested
Took ever blessing and took it for granted
I passed up on lesson I've seen it before
You may not know but I know what I know
I've played with my demons and laid in the snow
Shut down my life and then let the hurt go
Came back alive and destroyed every home
Killing my problems in ovens I go
Detaching feelings from pits of the ghost
I'm trying to cope I'm trying to cope
It is what it is And I'll lay with the ghost
It is what it is and I'll lay with my ghost