Tyrannophobia - Widower Lyrics

I lay awake dreaming of things I could done
Days become cruel reminders of times passing
All that ruins them is the whispers of the trees
Speaking back at me, taunting the man I once was
I could do nothing at all
I am fated to survive
Knowing I should have died
I am fated to live a lie
Knowing you are now only a memory of mine
You are the face in my dreams and I have built my own personal hell
But it's the only thing keeping me here
I am surrounded by this fear
It's loathsome, how much violence lives inside me
Everyday feels like a nightmare that won't end
I am praying something will make a difference
I am praying
When they ask
I tell them for in whispers of doom
The eyes of men grow restless
This pain just feels so f*cking endless
You are the face in my dreams and I have built my own personal hell
Slate should be a memory of what I turned to be
It's problem that I can't be in the same plane as those I love are
Jaded knowing safety was a few steps away
We lie and say its all for a reason
There are no reasons
It's thoughts and prayers
It's thoughts and prayers
It's lies we tell each other when the tragic comes
It comes, It comes it takes time to see
There is no meaning any f*cking thing
I failed you
I miss you