$uav - Weakness Lyrics

I don't know how to say this but
I just hate myself
Damn my minds too much
Much
My mind is too much for me to handle
At this juncture
Nerves are firing like
I'm performing acupuncture
That's a little strange
I lack a steady hand
I couldn't even keep my composure
When I was standing on a patch of sand
Hold up
Let me take a few steps back
Caught in a sand trap
You don't wanna get sucked in
Now stand back
This is my battle to fight
The battle of my life damn it
Best get it right
But this the ignorant side
Where the truth is just as good as a lie
Let's take a dive inside
See what we find
We got a picturesque childhood
Some would say I grew up good
Some would say I grew up great
They don't even understand
All the shit I pushed away
Who would want to chat about
All the bad moments
That's a book I read too many times
I want to close it
Shut the door on that shit
Walk the f*ck away
About a 1,000 miles of distance
That's how far I stay
Push it to the back of the my mind
I know you see the signs
Life is not all roses and wine
I know you see that
I know that there's things in my past
I wish I could retract
Be more involved in situations
Instead of being closed off
Sealed and locked like a safe
Pushing everyone away
Losing myself in my imagination
Always been a little arrogant
A little hard to comprehend
Let's make it harder then
Nothing in life is forever
And I'm just so fed up
That people don't realize that
I got so many ideas
I know that I'll never accomplish
Speak to myself in the mirror
Dismiss every single word as nonsense
Got a dream
Better chase it
You too scared
Never make it
How you s'posed to make it to the finish
When before you even reach the start
All your confidence diminished
Life is made for the winners
For the people that will
Stick they necks out
For what they believe in
So basically, to make it in this world
Be a giraffe before you a cheetah
I gotta stand
I am a leader
You don't understand
Then we don't need you
Only the truest stand with us
The rest of y'all can suck a dick
Speaking of which
What were your talents again
I only go for the win
I don't believe in what you believe
So what are you saying
That's a sin
Guess I'm a martyr then
Time for the martyrdom
I done worked too f*cking hard
To be labeled a waste
Whether girls, money or fame
Me
I always give chase
Now that is always the case
Imagine a 20 something year old
Interlaced with nothing
But resentment and rage
Who can't handle rejection
Or loss in the games that he plays
But I'm pressing on
Making little changes on the way
Someday I'ma figure out exactly
What I want to say
I don't know how to say this but
I just can't change shit
What the f*ck is wrong
Wrong